I was terrified to start up again after surgery. I felt so altered and being I'm in my early 60's like my time had passed for intimacy. I was so wrong. I had to grieve the loss of my body parts...I have a ceremony that I repeat once in awhile where I write notes of thanks to those parts that would've killed me if intact, (my uterus and cervix, appendix). I write notes of thanks and gratitude for my two kids , burn them and then and bury them lovingly. I'd not grieved my menopause which came in my late 40's. I have better sex now that I ever had when I was still "whole". My partner is more than happy! I'm more than happy! Go slowly back and gain your confidence; make adjustments that you need and seek advice from your Practitioners if you need to. Their coolest advice was Coconut oil...(you can use it everywhere)